Here I am at the clinic waiting for my taxi to take me back to work. Is this for real?? Holy shit. I'm back to feeling terrified. But also skeptical, incredulous, in denial, etc. I'm feeling a lot, but I can't put my finger on any one particular feeling. Really it's a bit overwhelming and then all of the sudden at the same time it's so overwhelming I can't think about it at all.
I did the trigger last night at 6pm. Managed to not open one of the glass vials very well and it made a bit of a mess as when the top came off it crushed. But it was okay. I started to get a bit freaked out about the timing of the trigger versus the timing of the insemination today as they were scheduled for 20 hours apart. On the internet, which you should never read for medical advice, there are so many women freaking out about the timing of these two things. Basically the trigger starts the ovulation process, but it takes time. Both the egg and sperm have certain lifespans and ideally you want those things to match up. When I did egg freezing, the procedure was 35 hours after the trigger (I think) so this sort of freaked me out and I went for the earliest time they told me. However, I asked the doctor about this at the procedure and she was extremely reassuring about success rates of 20 hour versus 35 hour (which is to say, they're basically the same) and that they believe they don't want to miss the egg window so better to go early. Fine by me.
Anyway, I took a taxi to the clinic from work. They told me to be here at 1:45 and of course I was early. But they were running late. So I didn't go in until probably 2:15. No one else was in the recovery room and I had a cubicle to myself. Jeans and underwear came off and a hospital robe went on the front. I got to hold it together at the back which is always fun. The doctor and trainee doctor came in and explained the procedure. I think it took longer to explain then do!
We went into the procedure room and I got on the table. The lead doctor had an ultrasound on my tummy to watch the procedure and try to see the ovary. She couldn't see the follicle, which could mean it already started to release, or she just couldn't see it from that angle. The trainee doctor put in the speculum and cleaned the womb entrance with sterile water. A tiny catheter was put into the womb and then the embryologist passes over the prepared sperm. This was connected to the catheter, injected, and all was done! The catheter was so tiny I didn't have any cramping at all. Not like the Hycosi at all. In fact, I didn't even know the catheter was inserted.
Now the waiting begins. Since the egg may or may not be released yet, there is still some time (say, 24 hours) for it even to become fertilized. Then it takes some time to properly implant. I need a progesterone test in a week to verify l ovulated, although I can't imagine I didn't. Then they gave me a home pregnancy test to take on the 11th of March. This is actually a bit more than 2 weeks which sort of sucks. I'm sure the waiting is going to be emotionally taxing.
But really, as the doctor said, that's all there is to it. She made an effort to express to me that there is pretty much nothing I can do at this point that will change the outcome. She said, if I have a doubt about something, I shouldn't do it. But not because it will make a difference, but more because it will make a difference to how I feel and my stress levels. She said to keep taking vitamins and wait.
So that's pretty much all I can do....
In the meantime, assuming this cycle doesn't work, I asked about when I could order the drugs for the next cycle. They said to call on the first day of my period if it starts and hopefully I could get the drugs and come in for a scan on day 4. So.... obviously there's a much greater likelihood that this will be the case as opposed to the alternative.
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